Parce que je ne suis pas.
Parce que je ne veux pas savoir comment je suis.
If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know, only I can understand my own condition. You live with the threat; you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. Leonard, I live with it too.
~ The Hours
Can't sometimes believe this is happening to me...